infatuate [verb in-fach-oo-eyt; adjective, noun in-fach-oo-it, -eyt]
verb (used with object), infatuated, infatuating.
1. to inspire or possess with a foolish or unreasoning passion

I am truly infatuated with the sky...especially the hawaiian sky.

Most of the time when I think something is important or beautiful, I take a picture of it. This would explain the reason I have a looooot of pictures of the sky on my phone currently.

The clouds. The blue sky. The silhouettes of the palm trees. These things added together create the most beautiful skies my 18 years of life have ever seen. Take a look for yourself (although pictures never seem to do the world's magnificence justice)...
xoxo, had.

Today I had the most interesting & thought-provoking conversation with my cute roommates. After hearing different comments about what different people find beautiful, it made me think to myself, "Had, whyyy do you worry so much?"

I love the quote, "beauty is in the eye of the beholder," because I feel that it's just so truthful. Every single person, in every single place on this earth has something beautiful inside of them - and as I meet lots & lots of new people on this new adventure, I'm going to try and find that beautiful thing. 

Because my roommates were the ones that initiated this thought process, I want to share something beautiful about each one of them:
Madison - an interest in others, an amazing giver of advice
Alyssa - a desire to make those around her feel cared for
Mikayla - a pizzaz for life, makes everyone around her giggle.

Love those three & that I get to live with them for the next little while. Thankful for the ladies of #314.

momma bringing me out to hawaii & adventuring with me * getting a job in the byu-hawaii admissions office * getting my cast off & the three pins (yixes) out of my finger * name tags that say "aloha my name is..." instead of "hello..." * surviving my first week of COLLEGE * getting an adoooorable necklace in the mail from sweet aabee thomas * watching the fault in our stars on my laptop * going to the la'ie temple on thursday night * rejuvenating sabbath days * facetiming & calling people that i love dearly

I think these two words (see title of post) perfectly describe my feelings at this time...

Anxious: I'm far, far away from everyone & everything I've ever known. The time difference between here & Utah is 4 hours...which just seems to make talking to loved ones from home more difficult. I start COLLEGE classes in 2 days & I really, really want to do well in them.

Awestruck: This place that I'm living is incredibly beautiful. I love the three girls that I'm living with. The temple (my faaavorite place) is within walking distance from me. Everyone I've met thus far has been very friendly. I've been able to feel the spirit & my Heavenly Father's love for me many times. God is good. I know this could one of the best experiences of my life if I make it that way, so that's my goal. It's already been hard, and although I'm not a crier, I've cried a few times.

This is the life I've been blessed with, and I'm so grateful for these experiences that I know will open my eyes up to so many new things. Please keep me in your prayers as I adjust to a new surrounding. Sending my love to all those who have helped me get this far.

Tomorrow begins a whole new part of my life, because tomorrow I leave from Provo, UT and move to Laie, HI.

being introduced to the upstairs of the provo library * officially deciding where i'm going to be studying next year (byu hawaii) * getting to vote for the first time ever * going to a great big world concert * booking a flight to hawaii * messaging sweet gabi from france for the first time in months * enjoying a very relaxing spring break * figuring out that my new favorite place is the hammock under our deck * an amazing general conference * going to 6 different temples in 6 days * spending time with my 2 sweet nieces * going to a mat kearney concert * peach smoothies from kneaders * exploring vegas with my momma & cj * my dad sending us kids the most adorable picture of he & my mom when they were dating * chaperoning cj's field trip to the state capitol yesterday

listening to music with the windows down while driving home from my internship every day * cole & april (+their girls) coming to spend the weekend in provo * casey & megan getting married (and looking soo happy) * having a sleepover with cj in mom & dad's room because our parents are out of town * the amazing weather on sunday afternoon * getting to do baptisms at the temple 2x this week with cj because she turned 12 on tuesday * the amazing sunset on sunday night * daily selfies with lewis * hearing kennedy yell, "auuuuuntie had!" when i walked into the room on saturday * snuggling with sweet baby finnley * attending the nhs-sponsored hunger banquet on wednesday * taking senior pics with hannah today * realizing i only have 2 months + 4 days until i graduate * being introduced to super smash brothers on saturday night * calling my grandparents and giving them the date & time of my graduation * finding a cute picture thing at hobby lobby that describes me perfectly